27 June 2015

meet GIDE!!

... the life changer!!
two days old baby G
The Commandment
during my last check up, ..
om dokter: here's the situation, you're 1 cm dilated already and the baby is mature enough so there is no point to wait again since your 2 days away to your EDD too. we're concern about your bp. it's still at border line.  so I'm going to arrange appointment for you tomorrow to come back and we're going to insert the tab for induction. some women need 1 tab but some need 2 tabs. don't worry, I'll inform Dr Su regarding to this matter and she'll still be the one who in charge in the delivery process ... You just have your breakfast as per normal then come to delivery suite directly.

me: alriteeeeee *mau pasang muka sok cool tapi ga bisa! ya keleus udah pembukaan satu ternyata* .. but doc, is it possible for me to come a bit late in the afternoon coz I'm waiting for my mom to come. She's taking the first flight though .. *lah ini pasiennya ngeyel! HAHAHA*

om dokter: sure! no problem with that! whenever you're ready just come down here and we'll start the procedure and hopefully by tomorrow night the baby is out 

me: alriteeeee *ga tau musti bilang apa lagi* ...

excited, happy, surprised, yet nervous at the same time!! I was trying to digest everything and made sure it was real since I thought it's going to be another normal check up! but apparently it's a big no no!!  immediately called abang to break the news and the father-to-be was speechless too! HOHOHO

The Induction
indomie for breakfast? checked!
shower? checked!
eye liner? checked!
hospital bag? checked!
arrival of the future grandma? checked!

off we go to the hospital!
the first tab was inserted around 2pm and after 2 hours later it's only 2 cm dilated! oalah!! the second tablet was inserted around 7pm and again after 2 hours it still 2 cm dilated! another oalah moment!! fyi, during those long hours of waiting what I did was sleep - walk - eat - repeat! suer dua jari! HAHAHA ..  and of course with abang beside me!

went back to our room *macam lagi staycation aja ya bok*, hoping to get some rest to get ready for the big tomorrow ... but it only last 'till midnight! I started to feel the cramp! on and off .. and "the show" showed up! called the nurse, being asked about the pain level, and my answer was 4! still bearable for me so the nurse asked me to go back to bed again ..

around 1.30ish in the morning, I couldn't take it anymore! and this time around when being asked about the pain level my answer was 8 to 9!!! OHEMJI!! they did arrangement to send me down to the delivery suite and I even couldn't walk on my own .. tried not to be the drama queen but it was so painful down there! so here come the wheelchair! first time ever using the wheelchair .. it could be fun without the pain though!!

The Execution
bah! macam mau dijagal aje!! HOHOHO ... sekarang ngetik bisa ketawa - ketiwi, pas hari itu mah boro - boro cengengesan yang ada meringis jelek banget!!!

midwife: what type of pain killer do you want to use?
abang: we will try the gas first ...
midwife: okay! when you feel the pain, bring the mask to your nose and mouth, breathe in! when the pain is gone let it go ..

after few moments ...

midwife: do you feel better? the gas will make you more relax and a bit sleepy ..
me: *angguk - angguk mulai teler*

they did another internal check and I really really really hate it!!! they said it's 4 cm dilated!! 6 more to go, Gillian!!! hang in there!! you can do it!! ... they induced me through the drip too but sadly the BP was not cooperating well again, it's getting higher again and it was not good sign! they suggested to give me epidural so I can rest and the BP would go down .. looking at my condition, in pain and half conscious, abang needed to make decision! and he said yes to the epidural!!

due to my high BP, they couldn't immediately inject the epidural. they needed to do some blood test and in a meanwhile I was still depending on the gas! to be honest, I kinda like the high-feeling from the gas! you still can feel the pain but not that bad .. they call it the laughing gas! for me, it's the happy gas!! HOHOHO

it's time for abang to sign the epi consent form and suddenly the midwife saw I was in the position of pushing! another internal check and it's 10 cm dilated!!! WOHOOO!!! it's a blessing in disguise! the rising of the BP and the blood test were just God's miraculous way to buy the time! another confession to make, I was totally half sober so abang recap the story to me. he said it was about half an hour from 4cm to 10cm!! the midwife said no need epidural anymore and they're calling Dr Su in! 

long story short, all I remember was abang holding my hand, "gee, God answer your prayer! you don't need the epidural .. udah pembukaan 10, sayang! you just need to push!! you can do it, gee!" I'm more than grateful to have abang beside me! he was my biggest supporter! non-stop praying and giving words of encouragement through out the whole process! i love you, rai!

.. and the rest was history! after pushing and pushing, ... by the grace of the Lord, our lil man was born on 11 June 2015 at 4.11am, weighing 3,765kg and 53cm in length! Gideon Eleos Praptana, the mighty man of God who will always seek for God's will and direction his life .. and because he has received mercy from the Lord, he will show mercy and compassion to others ..

it's no longer me and him! it's me, him, and another him!! HOHOHO .. words can't describe the feeling when they handed in your baby to your arm!! praise to be the God for all his favor to our family!! it's been two weeks now and recalling to those days, looking at my baby's face .. I can't stop my tears to roll down to my cheeks .. happy tears! joyful tears! grateful tears!! I'm in awe!! :)

08 June 2015

The Final Countdown

woot woot! it's getting closer! it's getting real!! jiah!! emang dari kemaren boongan apa?! HOHOHO my app is telling me it's 5 days left to the estimated due date! basically it can be anytime soon by now HOHOHOHO .. are we ready?! am I ready?! ready or not the baby is coming!!! initially we've been keep telling the baby to wait for the grandma to come and she's coming in two days!! and now I'm bargaining to God like "is it possible for the baby to come out on the 15, .. jadi kayak tanggal cantik gitu deh Tuhan, 15 - 6 -15 .. tapi terserah waktunya Tuhan aja deh!" ini emak emang banyak maunya yak!!

btw, here are some snap shots from our maternity shots earlier last month done by Gregory "Chuil" William from Retrospek together with his lovely partner Gracia "GC" Christabella as the creative director. I was freaked out during D-Day realizing I couldn't fit into my dungaree! thanks to the bump! HAHAHA .. overall the photo shoot went well despite it was raining like cat and dog in the morning, ... and we didn't manage to take the tunnel session as this preggie was already tired! special thanks to Shella and Gabby too!! kalo kata GC, "picnic matnya ada bau - bau cinta Gabby sama Chang!" ahey!!! ;D

been receiving lots of warm wishes and encouragement lately and from the deepest of my heart I would like to say THANK YOU!!! yes to you and you and you!!!! THANK YOU!!! *sending virtual hugs to all of you beloved*

.. and yes! been receiving lots of questions too! me myself is a first - timer here so we should give each other high five since I have no idea what's going to happen on the D-Day! well, we went for the antenatal class and it helped me so much to give preview what's going to happen .. especially watching the video where I got shocked of my life! HAHAHA .. but in real life I'm clueless!

Normal VS Cesarian n.. and Epidural?!
"gill maunya gimana? normal atau c-sect?" I would like to choose normal delivery by grace! can I have amen for that?! we were talking in our family WhatsApp group sometimes ago and it went more or less like this ..

me: ngeri cuy kalo ngomong lahiran sama si mami! kayak ngeludah aja!
mom: lah emang begitu! tinggal ngeden bayinya kuar!
me: horor, mam!!

HAHAHA .. that's my mom! it's like encouraging and scary at the same time! HAHAHA .. btw, my mom gave birth normally to three of us and it considered big babies. I was born 3.7 kg, my younger sister was 4.25kg .. and the youngest was 4.5kg!! yup yup! gw rasa kalo gw punya ade satu lagi bisa dipastikan 5 kg! HAHAHA ... and btw she's coming with 80 kg luggage!! so baby, you have to wait for grandma to come, unpack your stuff ... and then you can come out! HAHAHA :D

a good friend of mine which is apparently a surgeon beg to me to use the epidural! HAHAHA .. she said, "I could see blood everywhere, .. cutting people's body but please please ask for epidural okay?!" HOHOHO .. there always pro and cons with this epidural thingy! si mami bilang ga usah pake karena pasti bisa, ada orang bilang mending pake daripada menderita endebre ebdrea ... what about me?! abang keep saying to me, "semuanya terserah gee! pokoknya kalo gee rasa gee sanggup and it's bearable you go for it but if you can't take it just ask for it .. ga usah mikirin apa - apa, kayak gengsi bilang awal ga mau pake epidural terus ternyata pake .. jangan mikir gitu! ga usah mikirin duitnya juga! pokoknya pikirin yang nyaman buat kamu aja. pilihan di tangan kamu, sayang .. apapun itu aku dukung!" thanks hunyiii!! 

bukan bermaksud idealis atau sok kuat, in my happy-go-lucky point of view gw selalu doa sama Tuhan kayak gini, "God I know I have to go through all this pain which I have no idea how it's going to be ... and all I need is Your strength and comfort to help me to go through all this" ... gw percaya kalo Tuhan mau ilanging sakitnya juga bisa banget! there's nothing impossible for Him tapi di satu sisi gw percaya kalopun harus lewatin sakit, ada favor dari Tuhan .. gw minta ketenangan dari Tuhan saat - saat final countdown kayak gini dan saat hari H-nya juga! yeah yeah yeah!!! soal epidural, laughing gas atau apapun itu ya nanti aku update lah ya abis si dede kuar! :)

oh! during antenatal class, the midwife told us that songs can help us to ease the pain during the first stage of labour .. and this preggie which was me raised her hand and asked, "can we bring our own music to the delivery suite?" and she said, "well, there will be soothing music provided in delivery suite but sure you can play your own music! you can create your own playlist!! they said during the first stage it's best to play soothing and calming type of music and on the second stage where you have to push, it's good to play the upbeat music!" ... I whispered to abang, "okay first stage no other name, second stage young and free" HAHAHAHA :D

Spring Cleaning, Eating, .. and Laughing!
I'm done with my spring cleaning! like finally!! kalo kata abang, "kamu tuh ngapain sih glatak glutuk mulu kerjaannya?!" HOHOHO .. sebenernya masih rada gatel sedikit tapi ntar tunggu mamake dateng dan sekali lagi menggempur rumah! but so far dapur udah digempur sampe mau nyobain bikin martabak ga jadi karena males beberes lagi hehehe .. terus hari ini officially di rumah dan dengan bahagianya dari pagi ngejogrok beresin store room .. abang cuma bisa geleng - geleng doank liat kelakuan istrinya! itung - itung olahraga juga menjelang persiapan persalinan! senam hamil edisi gillian!! tenang - tenang ga angkut yang berat - berat gitu .. inget bener koq kalo lagi hamidun ;)

been eating lots of good food lately!! went for sushi date with abang last week, .. had the best waffle in town so far in Sunday Folks yesterday .. not to forget the mentaiko mashed potato at Craft Bistro! I had foodgasm!!!! I'm all about potato and this time around you had it with mentaiko! beuh!!!! enyak enyak enyak!!! thank God for all the good food!! .. on top of that beyond grateful surrounded by people who make me laugh!! 

Meet the Gynae .. again!
last Thursday during my appointment, the gynae said that my blood pressure was quite high .. so they told me to rest for a while, relax myself and they were going to do another round of check up and if it's still high there's possibility they need to induce me! I was like OHEMJI!! Jentjung and Ella were there too and so ready to call abang .. HAHAHA .. after 10 minutes they checked again and it was okay. the doctor said, "I think you're hungry that's why your BP is high" .. and abang couldn't agree more with the doctor when I was speaking to him on the phone .. last week was the longest appointment I've ever had! came there at 5pm and they asked me to wait since the doctor needed to help delivery .. alright! then after like 3 hours later was my turn and I was the last patient! gimana ga laper, dok!!! 

tomorrow will be another appointment day and I have a feeling it's going to be the last one before our lil man pop out to this world ... I had this "false contraction" feeling since last Saturday so it's getting nearer .. and having like diarrhea last week and this week ... *inhale exhale*

him: wow! I can't believe we're going to be parents soon!
me: yup! you're going to be a dad!!
him: can't wait for dede to come out ... but nervous too!
me: same here!!
him: love you!
me: love you too!!
*ayah ibu berpelukan ala teletubbies* 

so everybody let's sing the final countdown!! ....

02 June 2015

The day ...

... everything slip through your hands!

entah ini karena efek hormon hamil yang bikin motorik gw jadi melemah atau gw terlalu napsu, hari ini hampir semua yang gw pegang lepas aja gitu! mulai dari botol aer sampe sendok, belom lagi kertas, you name it ... jiah!! bikin kesel!!! 

"kenapa gee?"
"ini donk botol minumnya lepas .. haish!!"
"udah udah tenang - tenang .. jangan kesel - kesel"
"padahal aku megangnya bener loh!"
"ya udah tenang! kamu ati - ati, ini licin .. sini aku pel"
"ati - ati yaaa .. licin ubinnya .."
"iya rai, makasih yaaaa"

kayak udah tau gitu gw bakal kesel - kesel HEHEHE .. makasih sayang! terus entah kenapa juga hari ini perkedel gw gagal! resepnya kayak biasa, bikinnya kayak biasa, tapi jadinya ga kayak biasa ... padahal malem sebelomnya udah ngebayangin makan sop buntut, perkedel, sama kerupuk udang! tetep sih kesampean tapi ya perkedelnya itu lebih ke arah mashed potato! haish!!! tapi ya sutra lah ya bok, masih bisa makan .. itu yang patut disyukuri :)

btw, Happy Vesak Day for those who celebrates! di singapur hari ini liburnya tapi di indo baru besok .. ya hari apapun itu yang penting ga kerja full seminggu HOHOHO ... and for my case, gw bakal kerja 3 hari doank karena hari kamis ada jadwal check up lagi .. yup getting closer and closer!! terakhir check up minggu lalu si dede beratnya udah 3.2 kg! yeah!! big baby on the way ... we expect around 3.5 kg baby maybe?! ;)

we're also done with our antenatal class last week and it was a good experience. I'm glad we signed up for that class so we more or less know what to expect during the D-Day!! let's see whether I'll remember those all breathing techniques in the delivery suite HOHOHO ... *panting mode on* 

mungkin ini yang disebut dengan nesting instinct kali ya, hari libur ini gw semangat beres - beres rumah dan hari ini berhasil menggempur dapur!! yeay yeay yeay! kompor udah cling! meja makan udah cling juga! kulkas juga udah cling! HAHA .. padahal sebenernya gara - gara tadi abis masak dan harus bebenah sih jadi sekalian lah gw sikat semua!! rasanya seneng!!! HOHOHO .. kelar dapur, giliran meja dan - dan di kamar, semua diedit dan ditelaah satu - satu, yang ga kepake langsung buang - buangin aja! sorenya lanjut beresin barang - barang si dede sama kamar belajar .. ini dibantuin sama si abang yang gemes liat gw glatak - glutuk ga kelar - kelar!! HOHOHO ..

"udah puas belom?"
"belom, rai ... aku masih pengen buang - buangin barang terus dirapihin lagi"
"haduh haduh! ntar ye pas kamis tuh kamu sendiri! aku ga sanggup lagi"
"iya ntar aku beresin lagi"

malem kelar beres - beres ditutup dengan sushi date!! kelar makan ada seneng pulang nenteng dua pasang sepatu baru! bukan gw!!! beneran!! iye si abang!!! dan lebih seneng lagi karena ada diskon di balik diskon!! HOHOHOHO .. there always small things to celebrate despite all the things that slipped trough your hands!! #celebratesmallvictories

good night, peeps! 
be blessed!

29 May 2015

Bloomin' Bread

.. and we're loving it!!!
saw the video of this blooming bread on facebook and decided to give it a shot with the ciwiks during our TWG session last wednesday .. and thank God we didn't burn the house down as we almost caused the oven on fire! HAHAHA :D

the what
  • 1 round bread loaf
  • 1/2 stick of butter
  • chopped garlic
  • shredded mozzarella or parmesan cheese
  • chopped spring onion
  • ham
the how
  • cut the bread in criss-cross style
  • tuck the ham and cheese between all the sides of each square
  • melt the butter, mix with garlic, spring onion, and brush it over the bread
  • wrap the bread with aluminium foil and bake for 15 minutes in 250 degree celcius
  • unwrap it and bake for another 10 minutes
the result
#nomnomnom!! enjoy while it hot! and the best part to enjoy it is with your friends as you have to pull those squares out!!

another super easy recipe that I love!!! kami datang, kami senang, kami kenyang! HOHOHO .. give it a try and enjoy :)

38 Weeks Situations

yup! another pregnancy post!! bear with me, people! this preggie needs to vent out her feelings in order to make her keep sane .. in other word, channeling her centil mode! emang pengen pasang poto aja gituh! HOHOHOHO ...

Hobbit-Feet Situation
I'm amazed, shocked, scared, and in awe at the same time with my feet! HAHAHA .. nevertheless how my feet look like now I'm still grateful that this hobbit-feet situation only came during the past one month and yes waving good bye to all those flats! not even heels!! ... currently I'm counting on to my this super expanded charles and keith flats that ready to be thrown away once I give birth! seriously!!! and my H&M flats which surprisingly still can feet! that's all .. oh! and slippers!! honestly I was wondering those all Hollywood celebrities that can still walk in their stilettos! emejiiiing, kakak!!! me give up!!! ;)

Work Situation
next week will be my last week of work .. and I'll be starting my new role as a full time wife and mom! excited?! yes! nervous?! yes yes yes!! anyway, you'll never know 'till you try it!! and experience it! btw, I'm done meeting with the parents for this year's semester report and now busy finishing all the paper work. honestly, it's kinda hard to say good bye to the children especially with this little Charis ..

"Charis, once the baby's out, Ms Gillian is going to stay at home and take care of the baby"
"oh! then who's going to play with me?"
"Ms Dayah is still around ... you can play with her"
"can I go to your house and see your baby?"
"yes of course!"
"okay! I'll tell my papa and mommy to go to your house! Ms Gillian, can I touch your tummy?"
"sure .."
"hello baby *rubbing my tummy* thisi is Charis"

oh dear! how can I not going to miss you!! :(

House Situation
juggling between work, pregnancy, house works, and many other things are challenging! and so far we managed to cope with it .. but coming to third trimester when I feel tired easily we tried to figure out something which was calling out help from part time domestic helper! yaowoh nyari mbak part time sekarang macam cari jarum di tumpukan jerami!! tapi akhirnya dapet juga setelah sekian nomor yang gw sms-in!! orang mah dari kapan ya pake mbak, aku baru minggu lalu!! HOHOHOHO .. dan bahagia banget rasanyaaa .. si mbak menjamah bagian - bagian yang tida terjamah (baca: males) oleh saya! HEHEHE ...

what about nursery room?! well, we don't have the luxury of space here in Singapore .. and we're thinking to find a bigger place in the future tapi ntaran dulu aja lah. rumah yang sekarang menurut kita masih oke banget dan kita ga mau ribet mikirin nyari rumah, pindahan, dan lahiran di saat yang bersamaan! ampun dije!!! HOHOHO .. the plan is we're going to put the baby cot in our room and the other room will still be study room .. so far so good lah! and this upcoming days we are going to do another spring cleaning to arrange all the baby stuff! .. yup! getting more and more! thank you for all the love!! HUGS!

we feel overwhelmed with all the blessings!! setiap kali WA-an sama orang rumah pasti ada selipan foto hadiah buat si dede, ntar oma opanya yang beliin, ntar dikasih sama si tante dan si om itu, .. belom dikasih sama si oma ini dan itu. makasih juga yang udah kasih dede bath tub!! ntar gw cobain dulu ke bapaknya! HAHAHA .. meanwhile been telling dede to come out when his oma is here, .. "de, kamu kuarnya tunggu oma dateng ya .. soalnya kalo kuar sekarang ga punya ranjang loh" HOHOHOHO ... yup all the big stuff will be only coming just few days before the EDD!! so we'll see then .. ;D

Labour Bag Situation
ahay! things inside my labour bag according to the list given to me by the hospital ..

Documents for Admission
  • NRIC/Passport/Employment Pass
  • Pre Registration Folder
  • Letter of Guarantee (if any)
For Mommy
  • Cardigan
  • Toiletries - this one including eyeliner in my case! HAHA :D
  • Nursing Bra and Nursing Pad
  • Personal skin / body care / slippers
  • A set of clothing to wear upon discharge
  • Avoid bringing valuables/jewellery
For Baby
  • Cap, mittens, and booties for your baby
  • A set of baby clothing and a towel or baby blanket to keep your baby warm on the way home
all is packed in one bag pack! except my clothes upon discharge! aku masih mau cari dress asik macam Kate Middleton gitu deh!! HAHAHA .. ya masa dia doank yang boleh kuar rumah sakit glowing! aku juga mau, kakak!!! *dilempar ulekan sama emak - emak yang udah pada ngelahirin* .. ya namanya juga pengalaman pertama yak! masih sok idealis nih! HAHA .. 

Legal Situation
as you all know, status kita masih perantau alias foreigner di sini and currently we're applying our PR and still waiting for the good news. amin!! terus dengan situasi gw bakal resign in one week time, otomatis status legal gw bakal berubah jadi social visit pass that allows me to stay only 30 days in Singapore .. lah terus piye ini?! kita berdoa sih supaya by then PR kita udah diapproved, .. amin lagi!!! btw, I can still apply dependent pass under abang's employment pass .. so whatever it is we know that God is still good and in control :)

how about dede? all babies that born in Singapore should be registered legally in ICA, and good thing about Singapore you can do it effectively as the hospital can help you to do all this legal stuff provided you have all the documents be it you citizen, PR, or foreigner. since we are foreigner, there are some steps rather than just registering our baby legally here .. let me try to break it down in simple steps .. give birth - apply singapore birth cert - apply indonesia birth cert - apply indonesia passport -  apply PR or dependent pass 

I've jot down all the documents that we need. mostly you need to submit your original marriage certificate with English translation, passport, IC, .. and that's all!! another good thing about Singapore, you can apply it online!!! hooray!!! but for indonesia birth cert and passport you should go down to the embassy directly as they need to take biometric photo of the baby but still all is bearable. I contacted the Indonesian embassy last week to get ready before hand and they were very helpful in explaining all the details! this upcoming weeks are going to be a busy week for daddy and mommy :)

Husband and Wife Situation
abang has been supportive through out this pregnancy period and I can't be more grateful than that! makasih, bang!!! me and dede love you!!! 

him: gee, proses lahiran kayak gimana sih?
me: ga tau, rai! aku juga baru pertama kali HAHAHA .. ntar aku mau baca - baca lagi biar ga kagok, lagian kan kita ikut kelas juga .. ntar dikasih tau semuanya .. btw, kemaren aku baca - baca artikel soal hypnobirth ..
him: apaan tuh?! jangan maen hipnotis - hipnotisan lah ..
me: hahaha .. kaga! itu lebih ke teknik too calm yourself down on the D-day ..
him: oh!! ya pokoknya aku dukung gee .. just share and let me know what to do .. kamu mau lahiran di aer, dalem tanah ..
me: HA?! dalam tanah?! HAHAHAHAHAHA .. loe kata gw apaan .. film horor abis!
him: HAHAHAHAHA .. ya intinya aku dukung lah!!!

terlalu suportif agaknya! sampe lahiran dalem tanah pun didukung! HAHAHAHAHA ..

Overall Situation
ready or not the baby is coming!! HAHAHAHA .. going for another check up today! going for antenatal class tomorrow! going to pack up stuff the day after tomorrow! going for a sushi date too! going to enjoy the new season in our life! so bring it on!! :D

"a grand adventure is about to begin"
Winnie the Pooh